well. my first thought was to entitle this "procrastination," but... i've kind of committed to myself that this blogsite would be all HOPE... and for the title, that sounded a bit negative. i have put off some important things, but am reveling tonight in the fact that i am soul-living in a place of peace though all life-circumstances are not ideal. as i type, my bedroom/office is overflowing the edges of the dresser and desk with papers and bills. my closet is outpouring baskets of unfolded laundry. (i do not know whose clothes are hidden in those...lol.) the laundry closet is piled high, as well, awaiting the day of order-restoration. um. the sink if full of dishes and the book-nook in our school area/space is a mess. i have two papers due and two tests to study for and take for an online class, bills to pay, and unfinished larger home-projects to complete (painting and such).... but. today...children were celebrated. a friend was encouraged. and a visit from my kids' most adoring fans ended the day with the best photo memory ever... ***sigh***it's all good. yes. i would LOVE to have all the clothes put away. paperwork filed neatly. kitchen spit-spot. of course. i do crave order and will never give up on the idea that it IS possible in a family of six inhabiting a 1400 sq. ft. home for things to be put in place. i would love to have a perfect schedule in which all daily assignments such as online classwork and bill-paying were completed ahead of said (perfect) schedule. HOWEVER...i am content. content in knowing that perfection will come after my "birthday-suit falls off" (as scott likes to say...lol) and that in the living of life, when i am tempted to feel frustrated by the imperfection...or the less-than-expectation-meeting norm, i maintain inner peace that God is moving me through the days with a heart-focus on the most important things of life. the eternal things of life. Glory to God alone. (soli Deo gloria).
sounds like the start to a devotional.
ReplyDeleteand btw, i have seen time stand still for the reids. somehow or other, it all seems to come together in the end.
this may sound a bit off: I LOVE my home and plan to never ever forget how it was built and who the Master Contractor was, but there are days in which I long for the house to be smaller in which there were only room for the necessities of life. there seems to be an incredible and valuable lesson in having only that which is truly important in our most intimate spaces. sometimes extra space is an awesome and a welcoming breath of fresh air. other times it is just that, extra. you guys make it work just fine in your gracious and inviting and beautiful home. love you, friend. HOPE you have a fantastic day today.
meredith ader. you are the greatest friend ever. thank you so much for the encouragement of my heart.
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